So I went to the doctor..nothing good as always, but they did give me some meds, a lot of meds..i need to go back in ans get some blood work done, everything will be just dandy. No matter what happens, all of you who I know and care about, how could I not forget you guys? Remember all the laughs we had together? All of those retarded things we did? I do. Everyone goes through bad days, if you haven't then I'd like to meet you. Everyone has fights, but sometimes you realize that it was really stupid and laugh about it later on. Forgiveness is my thing. I know that life doesn't always seem fair, but i think that, that is life, disappointments are just bumps in the road of life, and you need to somehow get over it, bc on the other end of that bump there's a smooth road...I try to make everyone happy, lol, it doesn't always work out that way though. We all have our ups and downs and that's where you have your friends like all of you, to go to..bc from what I have found out...everyone is the same in some way, you just have to find it in every person...no one is perfect, no one lives perfect lives, some think they do, but that's ok. You find people that you share your secrets with, people that open your eyes to new things...this is what all of you have done for me, whether you know it or not...everyone. This is going to be my last entry for a while, i'll still leave you guys messages, I just wont write anything in mine for a while...lol but that doesn't mean I don't like you message

  This picture was taken in Africa                     

These are some people that I would like to thank, for everything they have done:

Austin, Karen, Jean, Sammie, Eden, Dan, Josh, Scott, David, Sara, Lauren, Olivia, Rachel, Emily, Eric, Tenley, Taylor, Lizzy, Steph, Morgan, Aman, Brandon, Kyle, Ali, Katie, Paige, Brittany, Sherea, Mary, Brad, Heather, Sara, Alex, Dillon Paul, Ben, Jared, George, John, Ray, Grace, Brian, Steve, Matt, Cody, Melissa, Amber, Angie, Erin, Andrea, Hanna, Elise, Amanda, Katie, Steven, Anika, Magdalena, Evan, Ashley, Audrey, Brandon, Bridget, Jessie, Kimberly, Molly, Nicole, Tommy and SO many others.

 This picture was taken at my lake in MI.

(on thursday) Lucas is here till monday. I feel weird. My mom hates what I'm doing. Went to China 1 with Austin. No more exams. I've decided that I'm not graduating early. Florida? Clark Rd. is in my room as well as everyone else. All of my memories are in there to, lol.

(still thursday) So today I really didn't do anything. Exam- presented my project, walk down to cafeteria with scott, saw josh and dan, came back and watched movie, came home and slept, ate lunch with Austin, went to work, came home. Nothing exciting at all. Only thing I really enjoyed was lunch with Austin.
My mom is yelling at Cory.., he's crying.
I'm grateful for my friends, wouldn't know what to do without them, ALL of you have helped me out in more ways than you know.
I can't sleep.....lava LAMP is moving. (friday- Austin i now know what you were talking about, oh wow)
Let me see.....well, Florida is looking promising to me right now. I'm pretty sure that I'm going to the Bahamas over spring break. New York is coming up soon.....i don't know why, but it makes me sad. I'm going to give Cory a bath tomorrow, he needs one, lol.
I wish my dad was here, I'm going to visit him soon. Ya know what's sad, i don't even really know how he died..i know i should ask my mom, but i don't like talking to her about that stuff, i don't like seeing her upset, I get a weird feeling inside of me. I wonder why my birth parent gave me up, what was it? To scared of me, what i would turn out to be? Didn't love me? Didn't want me? These things just make me think, i've always thought about them......for all of you who are reading this, I'm sorry that your reading what's in my head, I really am...I can't even believe that I'm writing this, haha lame! lol.

Where will you be when your 25?
 

This puts me to sleep. Read it carefully and think about what you think it means.

Lay down, your sweat a weary head. Night is falling, you have come to journeys end. Sleep now...and dream of the ones who came before, they are calling from across a distant shore. Why do you weep? What are these tears apon your face? Soon you will see, all of your fears will pass away, safe in my arms, your only sleeping. What can you see, on the horizon? Why do the white gulls call? Across the sea, a pale moon rises. The ships have come to carry me home. And all will turn to silver glass. A light on the water, all soles pass. Hope fades into the world of night. Through shadows falling, out of memory and time. Don't say, we have come now to the end, white shores are calling, you and I will meet again and you'll be here in my arms, just...sleeping. And all will turn to silver glass. A light on the water, gray ships pass, into the west.